This week has been ROUGH in the world of work/life balance. As I mentioned in my last post, I have a problem with being a chronic underplanner. Therefore, it should come as no surprise that I completely forgot to set up internet in the new place until I had already started moving in last week (which meant I couldn’t get an appointment to install everything until tomorrow). This has kind of put me in a bind, because Ellie’s daycare closes at 9:30pm, and since she is not used to my new place yet, I can’t just leave her home alone to howl for hours to the late night annoyance of all of my brand new neighbors. But I don’t have internet at home, and I have so much work this week that I really need to be able to work past 9:30.
So I found myself thinking, “wow, I really wish I didn’t have a dog this week, this is making my life so complicated.” (This was probably around the time that I was sitting in my car outside a downtown Starbucks around midnight with Ellie in the car trying to “borrow” Starbucks wifi to email a document I had been working on from home). I found myself feeling thankful that I don’t have a spouse or kids so I don’t have to worry about them at times like this. I wondered how on earth people in this job have spouses and kids (they do. crazy right?).
Then suddenly I realized how insane my thought process was. I was wishing I did not have my dog so that I could have more time to work. I have been looking forward to Friday all week just so I will have internet at home, to make it easier for me to work past 9:30pm. Kind of messed up, y’all.
Last night I was feeling super down. Suddenly overwhelmed by the fact that I just signed a year lease, committing myself to this life for at least another year. And my apartment was in shambles, and this project I’m on is ridiculous. So when I got home at 9:30, rather than figure out a way to work locally and drive over to Starbucks in the middle of the night to send off emails, I unpacked a few boxes, ate some chocolate, and then I snuggled on the couch with the pooch, watching Runaway Bride until I drifted to sleep (because not only is it one of my favorite movies, it is the only movie I could find).
I don’t want to be the girl that lets life fly by me because I don’t have time for anything but this job. Ellie is actually a little work-life balance blessing in disguise because she reminds me that there are OTHER THINGS IN THIS WORLD. I know people who have this job with miserable lives, and people with this job who (admittedly still have very busy times, but) generally lead happy lives. I want the latter.
On another note, Ellie is about as much of a control freak with noise as I am (she hates anything making noise that she doesn’t think should be making noise). So this morning, one of the neighbor’s dogs kept barking and I could hear it faintly through the wall. Ellie stood looking at the wall and doing this growl under her breath thing that she also likes to do around small children and things on wheels. Not acceptable, neighbor dog. You are not allowed to let your barking sounds drift into Ellie’s apartment 😉