Several of my friends have recently commented, “Michelle has risen from the dead!” And I have. You see, from about July until late December I have been a gloomy shell of my former self. I went from dogless, dateless, and workless (had a job, just nothing to do) in June to dog-owning, dating, and worked-to-death by July. And I kept thinking eventually the whirlwind would slow down, but no such luck. And I’m not gonna lie.. I was pretty miserable. I was miserable before… when I was ridiculously slow at work, recently broken-up with my boyfriend of 3+ years, closest friends and family members all very far away… and before I really got a chance to deal with all of that and pick myself back up off the ground, I suddenly got insanely busy with everything. No time to think. No time to sleep. No time to be. A whole different kind of misery ensued.
Currently, I’m still crazy busy but somehow with a little break at home (in Portland), and the turning of the Calendar to a new year, I feel renewed. After getting completely lost in all of the craziness over the past 9-10 months, I’m ready to get everything under control again. To remember that I have friends and family and hobbies again. And non-work related goals. Oddly, I’m much happier at work than I was prior to this crazy busy spell, but I’m also ready to work out some semblence of “work/life balance.” I’m ready to start taking pictures again, and writing again, and dreaming again. Sounds cheesy, but it’s true. Stay tuned 🙂
Another new thing: moving to a new loft by the end of the month. And I have decided NOT to get cable. It is so easy after a long day of work to justify plopping on the couch for several hours of mindless TV (that I often don’t even particularly care to watch) and then drifting off to sleep. How easy is it to sit down in front of a big screen with 100+ channels, find absolutely nothing interesting to watch, and still sit there and watch something anyway just for the sake of watching something?
(Besides, I can always catch Top Model on the internet.)
I want time to read and write and hang out with friends again, without the temptation to turn on a marathon of HGTV. We’ll see how it goes. I made it for 4 months without TV in Europe, I can do it again!